How do you begin to explain the emptiness and loneliness that comes with losing someone you love? It’s only been a few days since Ed earned his wings and I’m wandering around aimlessly, trying to figure out what to do. Each morning we shared coffee and talked about what was on the agenda for the day. It usually included eating breakfast at our favorite restaurant and then off to some appointment. We tried getting out…
Ed was always so strong and came back to us from many surgeries, illnesses and even cancer, but this was too much for him. My heart is broken and as I sit here, I can’t believe I won’t ever be hugging him again. On Monday, I knew he was getting ready to leave us and said, many times, he was tired and done fighting. Some of you may not have known that he was diagnosed…
All the plans are in place to bring him home Wednesday. He would be going home Tuesday except for the snow and ice that is coming tonight and through most of the day tomorrow. I’ll be staying the night since it probably will be impossible to get here. Again, he was very alert when we first came in this morning but went back to sleeping, off and on, most of the day. The doctor said…
I always call him in the morning, but this time when he didn’t answer, I figured it was too difficult for him to pick up the phone. I called his nurse and she was in his room and said he was doing ok. I could hear him talking (mumbling) in the background, and I felt better. Tim picked me up early to get to the hospital and we spent the entire day with him. He…
It definitely is getting more difficult to see the way Ed is not responding like he was before. Today, he didn’t want to do much of anything, even talk or eat. His favorite thing to do is chew on ice chips. He did become a little more alert when he got a FaceTime call from his sisters. It was nice to see his eyes open and him responding to them. He really enjoyed seeing Joan,…
I missed posting yesterday since there was so much going on. When I went to his room, the bed was gone and the nurse told me they moved him. She wasn’t sure what the reason was, because she wasn’t there. When I asked what floor, she told me H which is ICU. My heart skipped a beat and even though I couldn’t get there fast enough, I was afraid to walk in his room. He…
Ed was having pain last night and a hard time sleeping, so they gave him two Percocets, which I think was one too many. He was hallucinating, yelling and still had pain. We played cards and he was doing ok except for the continual pain in his shoulder, back, leg and hip. The doctor felt he was dehydrated, causing muscle cramps, and put him on IV fluids. That seemed to help until his stomach started…
Today was pretty much the same as yesterday with him being alert and then sleeping. When I was there in the morning, he was doing ok and we even played cards. Later he wanted to wash up and when they got him back in bed he drifted in and out of sleep for about an hour. I couldn’t even get him awake to play cards, but when the phone rang and announced it was Dan,…
It was hard to tell what was going on today. He was back and forth between being alert and then falling asleep instantly. Blood is still good and so is coumadin level, but concern now is getting him stronger. He’s been in bed for a week and had no food or fluids for days, so they need to get him moving around. Physical Therapy and Occupational Therapy saw him and are leaning towards him going…
The ultrasound and x-rays came back negative, so the pain was probably due to him not moving while on his back with both arms hooked up to IV’s. They wanted to make sure there were no blood clots since he was in a lot of pain. Thankfully, that was not the issue. His blood count was at 8.3 and is holding… as we hold our breath, too. They’ll start him on coumadin and take him…